Too Much Passion? Keep It Up

So, people like to be entertained, and there are many forms to be entertained by. Watching movies, playing music, making costumes….even pretending to be living in medieval times, and being a knight. That’s why we have hobbies, that is why we do the things we do. We like to pass time, with our hobbies, that’s what gives us relief, that’s what brings us back to our centers. We live to pursue our passions, or at least we should.

So, what happens when it doesn’t become fun anymore? Do we try and find a way to rekindle that passion(hey, I was out of the superhero thing for many years, egad!), or do we force ourselves to continue when we are clearly burnt out on that passion? What becomes of that passion when someone clearly wants something, but isn’t willing to work for it? What happens when you find people of the like mind, and their burn out starts to make it less enjoyable to you?

Look, hobbies are just that hobbies. Some people feel an obligation to continue on a hobby because that’s all they know. Look, if you are burnout, just quit, nobody’s going to stop you, and if you’re unhappy or in denial about change, then stop. Don’t bring a cloud down on people who want to enjoy what is there for the hobby, just because you can’t except yourself leaving that hobby. Then you push people back, and politic the shit out of it so that other’s are as miserable as you are. There was a time that you had a passion for these hobbies and now it’s like you have a cross to bare, just stop. All it does is seem to make you an asshole because you can’t except change.

I digress, I got a bit off course for a minute there. I have a passion for life, and I have a passion that covers a vast amount of different things in my life. I’ll admit that I’m finding my limits in some of those areas, but at the same time, I can take a moment and reset my mind, because I am passionate about those things. Quite frankly, I don’t want to lose those passions because it makes me who I am. I’m passionate about comics and superheroes. This world is shitty enough as it is with trolls trying to take other’s down because I think it’s funny or that they want to change the status quo in a negative way. People would rather watch you fall and spit on you, than to help you up and push you to succeed.

I’m passionate about geeky things, and I don’t have to share the specific subject that someone else is passionate about, to get excited to watch the fire when someone talks about how awesome frisbee golf is. I love the passion that people share when they talk about professional wrestling. I was there too, once, and I kind of got out of it, because I found it getting too stale, but God damn, I like watching my boy pretend that he’s John Cena, and his reactions to watching Raw or Smackdown. I like when my girls get all excited about Monster High and the new dolls that come out.

Passion is the only thing that should motivate us in life. If you’re passionate about making money and shopping, than you should be fired to do what it is that helps you get there. I’ve been a slave working jobs to make some money just to survive and support my family. I know what it’s like not to like going to work because there’s no passion there. I’m fortunate enough that I like the people I deal with on a regular basis to keep me going. Yes, this has been a very motivated blog this time, not only to vent my own frustrations with the world, but because this is something that I need to remind myself of as well.

Please, if you ever feel that the passion is gone, and the hobby doesn’t really interest you anymore, just stop. Let the other people continue to enjoy it until they stop having that passion. There’s no need to drag other people down into your misery with you.

This is the director and I’m calling this blog a wrap.

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You Can’t Catch The Time That Flew

What a weekend this has been! I can’t believe that I’ve been going strong all weekend long. Friday, we filmed. Saturday, we did a Parade of 1000 Flags, and an event for the Relay for Life, with a car show, and fund raiser. I only stated part way because I was uploading the dailies from Friday(which means a timeline of all the footage filmed), and I tried to get my homework for the week down. Today, we filmed, and I’m uploading my dailies from today, as a matter of fact, they are encoding right now.

So, with that being said, there were lesson learned this weekend from the director/filmmakers point of view. One, maybe plan on being on site a couple hours early, because things can take longer than expected, when getting started. It felt like we were running behind schedule every shoot day that we had. I think we could have better planned it, and maybe with more people with a larger skill pool might be able to get everything done on set sooner.

Second thing learned- it doesn’t hurt to quadruple check-in and make sure everyone is on the same page(I hate when people flake out). I get that this being a non-paid gig, might turn people off from working, but if you say that you will, please be a person of your word. I’m trying to get to the point of actually making money while doing this, and being able to pay people to film my projects.

Third, plan on filming only a few scenes per day, I think that what I was doing and with all the shots and angles, I felt like I didn’t quite get everything filmed the way I wanted, but at least I do have some good choices to pick from. I had to drop part of the scene, but having extra batteries and memory cards will help with that. I think we over worked the machinery.

Fourth, I discovered that I don’t have time for unprofessionalism on my set, while I love who I work with, I’m too focused to have to deal with people goofing off during filming. I mean seriously, I’m trying to make a name for myself, and this is my calling card to get there. Help me get my calling card and I’ll be able to pay you.

Fifth, with this crew I’m working with, I have a few new people and it really is becoming a well oiled team. I’m glad to bring in the people that I have. My cinematographer has brought an experienced eye to the game, and it’s seemed to bring my game up a bit, and I’m proud of the way we work together. I think it took to first day to find our rhythm, but I think we’re on the verge of getting things done at a better pace.

The final thing I’m really discovering is that post production is going to be the saving grace, because we can fix our mistakes there. Also, my cinematographer has experience there and we’ll be able to have a productive work flow there. I can’t say that I’ve ever been this excited and nervous about doing a project in my life. It started to feel a bit overwhelming, but I’ve gained confidence in the process and the support that I have behind me.

As a side note, learning the financial part of getting this movie made is also a wondrous experience, and this is something that I can put in my hat for the next big project. This is the director, coming off of the first week of filming #NashGray, and that’s a wrap.

Doomsday Clock IS Ticking?!?

I’m sitting here, on my couch(and not at the studio), thinking about tomorrow. This is a big day, and this is the day the thoughts become tangible. Luckey Bom Films first real production, complete with on set locations and a larger crew than I’ve ever worked with(yes, I know I’ve said this before), but it still puts me in awe of the amazing things and amazing people that I have gotten to work with. I’m ready for this adventure!

Again, and yes I also know that this has been mentioned, I’m down to my last three months of school. That’s fucking insane! How the hell did I get this far? I mean first I was off of work, then I was prepping for life outside of my current career, and poof, I started film school and I’m almost finished with it. Three months and I’ll have a Bachelors degree in Digital Filmmaking. With that, the real fun begins as I start to look for work, and work on other projects that I’ve gotten started, and polishing up my demo reel. This is where the insanity comes in from.

The craziest part of this whole scenario is the fact that I’m loving the busy that I’ve got going on. I love the projects that I get to work on, and the learning I’m doing besides my school work. I plan on being a jack-of-all-trades when it comes to the entertainment business. The best part is that I’ll have a bit of free time to actually sit back and learn all the new stuff that I hadn’t had the time for(I’m coming for you Adobe After Effects). I can hear Little Chris saying, “Dad, make me into the Flash, I’ll put on my costume for you.” My kid’s are the cutest, and they’re excited that they get to be apart of this amazing adventure with me. Chris wants to learn how to use the camera, and Lily’s interest is in practical effects at this time.

One of the more interesting aspects that I started to learn about this week was about using Indiegogo and trying to crowd fund my project. I did start reaching out to friends, and I see some support starting to show up. Most have to wait until they get paid before they can contribute. Let me say this now, Thank you for helping out, it means so much that you’re interested in seeing where I can go with my artistic vision, and I won’t forget you when I make something out of myself and my ragtag crew of friends helping me out. It’s starting slow, but I think as we go and I gain momentum, I’ll put out a trailer, and some snippets to try and entice people into helping getting this funded. I started with a $500 limit to test the waters, but if I could get more, than that would be so amazing, and I could use that money to get better equipment and supplies for the film, and some nice food that would help keep our own pockets safe from the harsh realities of debt.

Speaking of  Indiegogo, I’ve got to learn how to market better, this is something I haven’t failed to notice, but it would help me draw more attention to my YouTube pages as well, and maybe my blogging. So, with this crowd funding, I’m looking on creative perks to drive interest for things we can offer. Why not a Nash Gray mug, or some really cool crap like that? I wouldn’t mind having one(especially since I made the logo).

I think one of the best parts of this experience is that I’m bringing in my eldest offspring to help do make-up on the largest days of shooting, you know with the whole cast type of deal. I’m glad that I have the wife and kids on this project, maybe they’ll want to do more in the future(assuming that they don’t want to kill me first).

Well, tomorrow’s the big day, and I should get cleaned up and go to sleep. I’ve got plenty to do this weekend, and all of it isn’t about filming the movie. As we’ve been doing for most of the last week we’re gonna #DoItForAndy, #NashGray #BennyMightLive. This is the director, and that’s another wrap.

It’s Alive!!!

Boy, it’s been awhile since I blogged. I’m sorry for that, but life has been crazy. That’s because I’ve spent a good portion of my waking hours working on the Nash Gray script, and getting things ready for filming. That’s right! We are going to be filming as of next weekend. Three more months and I’m done with school, my blood, sweat, tears(well mostly sweat)  has come to this final stretch.

With all that being said, we had our first table read, and I finally got to see what all the hard work coming together is going to look like. It’s exciting to see something you spend so much hardworking and energy on coming to life. I see where Dr. Frankenstein got excited to bring his creature to life. It’s an amazing feeling to have a thought, and watch it become something tangible, something real. My creature, and I thank my partner Ed for working on this with me.

So, the plan is to start filming next weekend. This fact both excites me, and scares me, because I keep thinking to myself, please don’t fuck this up. The best thing is that I know that this group is going to have fun, and that’s part of the process. After every busy moment that I’ve had, I most defiantly know that this is what I was built for. The long days and busier nights, I wouldn’t change it for anything.

There are different factors that make this a challenge. The first one is I’m going to have a larger crew, this is a blessing because this should make for an easier time by not having to multi-task so much. The only thing is that I haven’t worked with all of them before, but again, I’m up to the challenge. Here’s to working with new and wonderful people.

The other half of this is the fact that I’ve only had to work with two people on screen at a time, and having six is going to take some thought, but, I know most of the cast, and they are dear friends, so it’ll be fun. This is the challenge I look forward too most, is to see how we get this going. I know that we’ll be joking around and having a good time between takes, because that’s the kind of person I am, but it will most defiantly be a great experience, and I expect that we’ll form bonds, and friendships out of this.

Three more months…

This is the director and that’s a wrap.

 

I’ll Pass On The Straight Jacket, Thank You

So, I just finished my last video before we go in to the Pre-production class, and now I’m four months from being over. The most current thing that I’ve been really trying is getting my post production skills going.  I’ve been watching videos about Photoshop, After Effects, and I’m just now trying to put them together by trying out some test footage. I got it to look like my son was controlling force lightning. I’m teaching him about camera and editing work, and I guess you can say that’s one of the ways we are bonding.

I would be lying if I said that I felt like I have this in the bag. Truth is, I’m scared shitless. There’s too much of the unknown ahead of me, but on the bright side is that the people I’ve asked to crew for me, and my actors so far, are people I know that I can count on. There has been a tremendous support for my endeavors, and I continue to build upon my network connections. It’s funny how you can make some friends over being geeky. It’s beautiful to be able to share a passion together and help each other be successful. I have some of the best people in my life because of that.

With that being said, I’m going to give a shout out to my crew; Ed, my friend and creative partner, this is your vision, and I’m glad that I could help bring the story to life. Sarah, my wife, you are the best support ever. Thanks for sticking by me through everything. Terry: you and I have been friends for so long, that you’ve always come to my aid in time of need. You’re family brother. Alisa, you’re eagerness to be of help and dedication is awesome, thanks for being a good dink. Rodney, you’ve worked for me as an actor, and we’ve acted together. I’m glad to bring you to the other side of the production team, I know you’re connections will help breathe life into the people you help cast. Mike, you’re the first friend that I ever made here, it’s funny that so many years later we would be going to school for the same thing. I look forward to working with you and have you on as an extra pair of eyes to get this done.

Celeste; while being the newest member of this crew, and one of the newest geeks, I welcome your insight on this process since you have some experience. Thank you for your willingness to help out. Now for my actors and SCA brethren, thank you, Dean and Curtis for being some of the feature players in my film. I look forward to seeing what it is that you bring to these characters, and I think that we’ll continue to have a good time, like always.

I’m looking forward to what creative things I have in the works to present unto everybody. If you haven’t subscribed to my stuff, please do, that’s the biggest way of showing me that you support this journey.  Thank you. This was just to be short and sweet. With that being said, this is the Director and that’s a wrap.

Superhero Shirt Day: The Birth of Something Bigger

Oh boy, where to even begin? Damn, I can’t believe that it’s been over a year since the world lost a big geek. James, I see or talk to your parents almost daily, and I know that they miss you more than ever. You left a huge hole in the lives that you impacted, and things wouldn’t be the same. It was good to know you kid.

Tomorrow is your birthday, you would have been twenty years old. I think you would be proud of the things that are being done in your name. There’s so much that I personally wish I could have shared with you, and I think the things that Sarah and I have done with your parents, would have gotten you excited to join in with as well.

Your birthday day has become a day to remember the parents who have lost a child, and I’ve had the unfortunate experience to see it happen to a few people I know, but their children are honored with you. Thank you for being a bigger light then anyone could have ever thought you would be.

Superhero Shirt Day brought along the birth of the Geeks of The IWV, and it has really brought people together. I never expected this to become such a big part of my life, hell, I’m producing content with its own channel because of the Geeks. It really fills that passionate side of me. Thank you Kim for letting me run with the Geeks on Geek concept, it’s something that I’ve been wanting to do for a long time, and I think James would have loved this concept too.

The Geeks of The IWV was something I agreed to start because I thought it would help my co-creator coupe, and it’s seemed to have given her that, and given her more. It’s even given me more than I thought I would have dreamed of. I knew that I was heading towards this anyway as an avenue that I wanted to pursue, but its also given me inspiration to create content with the other geeks that I know, and I can’t wait to start producing more content in the name of the Geeks.

So, to my followers on WordPress, Facebook, and Twitter, I ask that you wear something with a superhero as a shirt, or even something geeky, to help support this day. Help honor the parents of the lost children, and fly the geek flags high in the air. Happy twentieth James, we love you, and hope you’re smiling down upon those who honor your memory. This is the director, and with geeky pride, I’m calling this a wrap.

Last Five, Did I Just Bite Off to Much?

So, this is seriously crunch time in school.  I started looking at everything that has to be done for this class, and I’m a little more then intimidated.  There is so much to get done, even though I thought that we were going to ease into this, I’m a bit nervous, and my script is a bit more than I think most would plan theirs to be.  With that being said, I’m confident in the team that I have…just a bit anxious to know where this might go.

To start off, I didn’t think that what I wrote would be too hard to do, but I find that needing a number of extras, and locations might present a challenge.  Again, I’m sure the team can handle it, but I’m feeling out of sorts at the moment and not as confident in myself.  I just have to bring my A game when it comes down to what we are going to be doing.

I have a couple of things that are going for me: One, all other projects are pretty much on hold until we are done with Nash Gray’s story, and two I’m expanding the crew on this.  At this time, I do have three people that I’m adding to this project. I have a friend and fellow Los Angeles Film School  offering his help, so I’ll take him up on that offer as a second camera man.  I have a friend who is interested in film school and I’ll try and use him in a grip position.  Finally, I have someone who not only has worked with me on stage, but as worked for me in Appreciate What You Got. I’m thankful that he’s willing to help me as a casting agent.

Tonight is just a night for a short thought, and I’m prepping for one hell of a ride.  This is Chris, the Director, and that’s a wrap.